A little better day...

OK, so after about three bowls of ice cream...OK, you got me, it was lowfat yogurt!! things started to get a little better. I chatted with my Army guy and he decided he's still gonna talk to me. Which is cool but I'm not gonna live my life on hold like I was before. I'm free game. So, a friend of mine knowing I'm an unemployed loser asked me to take him to Columbus today. It's cool because he won this contest and got to create a commerical which they are premiering today. It's at a big marketing agency in Columbus, hello, right where I need to be. I'll do some sweet talking. I told my Columbus friend if I didn't find anything in Mooresville, I would be coming up to Columbus and look. She got pumped up and said we could get an apartment together, which would be totally cool.

Anyway, I didn't want to leave you all in a state of anticipation for my next batch of DANH DANH DANH.... POEMS FROM THE PAST

So here you go......

Wishful

Butterflies float like falling
Leaves over a sleeping meadow.
An ivory, ebony girl gazes
At the speckled sky, wishing
To be in it, escaping the world.

Untitled

The ocean lifts
One frigid brow,
And smiles with frothy
Teeth
The earth spins
The moon watches
Laughter echoes
Dancers feel
Beat of hearts lost
On an ebony boardwalk

Too soon

The rose petal struggles
Against the shards of ice
That hang off the edge
Of silken fronds.
It’s ridged stalk
Softens, bends
Under the weight
Of cold knives
On a spring morning.

Monet garden

In this monet garden
Brush strokes of precious
Petals speckle the sun-baked
Canvas soil. Evers green
Foliage transforms to aqua
Sky shades the coral cluster of mixed paint.

Midnight dream

When you are alone
And dance with your shadow
Or waltz with your reflection
A puddle of tears is midnight dreaming
And you wish someone was holding you
-right now.

Memories At Dusk

Misting;
A slight cool breeze,
I shiver, and look
Across a field of lovely memories,
Of ages of sorrow,
Of timeless handfuls of
Stardust.
The hopes and dreams of
A now dreamless plane,
Stark in it’s stillness
Only a heartful of phrases
And a boxful of ashes
To remember.
And the graveyard
Lies quiet on the
West summer hillside.

Wings of a Dove

The wings of a dove seems to carry life.
She can land during a thunderstorm and
Soar over mountains that stand in the way.
She can find the eye of a hurricane and be safe,
But she can also be shot down by evil’s deadly gun.

Gawd, I didn't know I had sooo many. I probably have two more additions you have to look forward to of DANH DANH DANH POEMS FROM THE PAST

Till next time........adigos!!

The icing on the cake....

OK, as if anything could make my SPECTACULAR day any better, I visited my Grandma. After about a 20 minute conversation she said she feels guilty about something. I asked her what... What did she do, she brought up my ex's name. And she wonders why I want to move away from here?!?! I mean, when a guy who has crushed my heart into a billion pieces and f*cked up just about everything aspect of a relationship for me...hint hint...Army Guy I Grandma still loves him. OK, so yeah, that really freakin' hurts. I'm guessing, seeing as how as soon as she mentioned his name, I left her just setting there, that she probably had a conversation with him. Nothing says cheating on my favorite granddaughter is OK better than a good long conversation and probably a hug.... Gawd, I hate my life right now.......Ice Cream... More ICE CREAM!!!!!

By special request....

OK, so I have been lagging on my postings. I've been kinda busy and I just got back from another trip to Charlotte/Mooresville. A high school friend of mine who's in the Army came in this past weekend so I hung out with him and his new wife on Saturday night.. It was a blast. I got to see some friends I hadn't seen in a long time. We sat around and reminised about the good ole days over some cold beer.. OK, so my friend had his single friend there, not so sutbly trying to get us together. It kinda worked in a way. Mostly because of the beer though. I did decline his advances however, because I really am starting to like my Army guy... I figured I would be seeing my Army guy when I went to Charlotte... WRONG!! I drove to Charlotte and he didn't come and see me. He wanted me to drive another couple of hours to his place. I would have, only he didn't give me directions... but, should I have?? I mean, should I have to make all the effort here?? See, for someone who talked about how much he missed me every day, it didn't seem like he cared too much to see me. And he didn't. I just got done chatting with him. He started out with how disappointed he was to not see me when I was down and how he misses me like crazy.. so I called his bluff and now he's mad and I'll probably never hear from him again. I guess it's better than dragging it out and then realizing "he wasn't that into me" throwback to the book I read a while back. I guess it really is right. Huh, go figure.

So anyway, I guess I'm back to completely single, having no one, Lisa. That kinda sucks because believe it or not, this guy really charmed me. He had me feeling like he couldn't live without me.... I guess it was just the thought of me he couldn't live without. Oh well, he's a man, like every other man I guess. Oh well, life goes on....

OK, so my trip to Mooresville was somewhat uneventful. I went and applied for several more places at the employment place. I was gonna go to the job fair but I got p*ssed off because I got in the parking garage and drove around for a half an hour and couldn't find a spot. OK, don't sell me the stupid ticket if there is no place to park... then I had to pay two bucks to get OUT of the garage... I wasn't very happy. I do know what I missed though, and it wasn't much. If I was a retail manager, I would have been good, but I'm not so I didn't miss anything. The coolest thing about my trip. The super nice lady from the hotel I was staying out.... the same one who wanted me to go out with her son, well, she took my numbers and told me she would call me if she heard of anything. She called me twice before I left and get me set up with a couple of hotel places. They might actually work out. One place was really really with really nice people working there. I think I would love to work there. I told the lady, the next time I'm down, I'm gonna have to meet her single son. I am soo impressed that I met people that nice, trying to help me out. I think that is just great. And she adores me.

OK, so my mind is a little preoccupied with my chat with my Army guy. I mean, I was right to be p*ssed that he made no effort to see me, right?!?! I mean, I drove four and a half hours to Mooresville and he's like three hours from there. He could have came and seen me right?? I would hate to think I got p*ssed for nothing and upset him causing him to never talk to me again. I think I'm in the right though. I mean, the road goes both ways but the funny thing was, I was gonna drive to see him. I would gonna do the whole love sick puppy act...AGAIN!!! What is up with that?? Do girls do that just because we are girls?? Why do we freakin' crawl?? And you know, I don't even know how well I liked this guy.. It's a very mixed up cycle I have going on here. If someone shows interest, then I don't want to let them go because just maybe, the thought that I have drilled into my head that "no one else will ever want me" is actually true and I will be alone for the rest of my puthetic life.... hummmm... that's a thought isn't it.... Maybe no one else worth wanting will ever want me... and the funny thing is, most of the guys who have wanted me, haven't been worth wanting, you know. None have had great jobs, been extremely intelligent, or even that nice of a guy. I guess I just take what I can get....which isn't much...oh, I think I need some ice cream........

Poems... from the past!!

OK, so I know you are just biting away at your nails in anticipation for more of my Poems... here are a couple more!!

Hunting Season

Secret evil sit quietly
Blending trees to painted face
Eyes fixed icy into
dawn hanging on branches
that will rule the earth.
Silver tips see through
Darkened chamber – innocence
Jumps in sight – grazing
Peace falls.

Untitled

The past is never over nor
The future ever here.
Shards beneath the sand are
Just old leaves from our own limbs.

Untitled

Nigh winds swirl moonlight
Dark castle weaves the evening
Shadows. Planets speckle
Lonely sky. The artists sleeps.

Shipwreck

Gently floating upon frigid crest
Ancient waves carries faded wreath
Endlessly awaiting their return.

Oriental images

Dragon breathes a golden
Fire which lights the way
For a smiling parade..

Moon-faced, coal haired
Beauty slow motion
Hands – dancing a story…

Smoky memories of a
Fallen dynasty clouds
The land. A lost emperor
Is mourned by flowing silk bows…

Crowded

Little room to move
Little room to breath
Millions apon millions
Of pale faces swarm
Like bees – rushing in
Mass confusion. Trying
To get set free.

OK, again, these were written for my creative writing class for a very ecentric professor. Even though she was strange, I did enjoy her classes so I guess being different is a good thing. Anyway, I have some more coming at ya later on...

Interesting...Look what I found...

OK, so I was going through some old files on my computer, Need to clear out some of the 120Gb hard drive, and I found some old poems I wrote for my creative writing class in college. OK, these were written back in 1998 so none of the poems reflect anything that has happened since them...even though some may seem like they did. Anyway, I figure I'll give you a couple at a time....

Only You

Cold sweat pores out my body
As I awake with shaking hands.
Dreams of you still haunt me
Our love I do not understand.
Years ago you made me lonely,
Now again you’ve done the same.
You were my one and only
But now you are my pain.

Transforming

The warm spring wind, comes on the scene
They don their coats of brilliant green.

The summer sun brings searing heat,
They keep their coats full and neat.

Rains fall – winds blow with all their might
But through it all they hold on tight.

Autumn days grow short and the winds grow cold
Somehow they seem to loose their hold.

First the ice and then the snow
Where is that beautiful coat, where did it go?

With shivering limbs they look around
And find their coats upon the ground.

It seems so very strange to me
This crazy cycle of the tree.

Open Window

I hear the wind that whispers
In the heart of the in-between.
The windows all wide open
Though the are not yet seen.
The truth it hears in often
Masked behind the panes.
But when the wind comes rushing in
It will all be clear again.

Best Friend

Hair of gold flowing free
Always waiting just for me.
Faithful – loyal – my biggest fan
Asks no questions – no demands.

Never tattles and never lies,
Sparkling volumes with sparkling eyes.
Man’s best friend – I’m a believer
Cause Molly is – My golden retriever.

OK, so these are pretty lame. The whole rhyming thing is just crazy... But, I do get better. These were dated 10/21/98 so I do get better. Some will really make you think.

Anyway, I just thought I would give you some stuff from my past. Before my world was turned upside down. It's funny because I came across some other stuff on my computer that I thought I deleted. Emails from the ex. I went through and deleted everything of/about him but I guess I missed some. I went back to the email where he tried to explain why he cheated.... get this, he tried to say it was because I didn't call him while I was at the race. He said if I would have called, things might have been different. I laughed out loud when I read it.... You know, I know cheaters. I have one very close to me. Although I believe cheaters do care for the person they are cheating on, I don't think they ever really consider anyone else's feelings. Their actions can affect so many more people than just the person they are with. It's a ripple effect, and sure eventually the ripples don't affect people as much but that is right before it hits the shore... So, anyone out there thinking of cheating... think about the people you love and who love you... how far will your ripples reach????

Throwin' out the past....

OK, so today I woke up alittle down in the dumps. Reality hit me. I don't have a job, I don't have any money, and I hate where I'm at. So I applied to a bunch of places online, did laundry and chatted with my Army guy. He does put a smile on my face. He even asked me to move down there and stay with him. He said I wouldn't have to worry about money. It was really sweet but then again, we don't know eachother that well yet.

So, anyway, I started cleaning out some drawers today. I had packed up all the all the exes memories a long long time ago. No, I didn't go through it. I didn't even think about it. But as I was cleaning out the drawer, I came across four cards he had given me. One was really sweet. It must have been on a day when I was down, kinda like today, and he gave me a card. Inside he wrote 24 things that he liked about me. OK, most were really dumb, and I see that now, but I remember what a smile he put on my face that day. I wish I had that now. Not him, but someone to lean on. The more I dug in the drawer, the very last thing I pulled out was about 10 copies of the same picture of me and him. OK, yeah, that hurt. An aquaintance called me last night and she mentioned that I made a good choice dating him because he is very attractive. Not really what I wanted to hear because all the bad of him has tarnished him in my eyes...forever. Even in that picture where I was soo in love with him, he seemed... I don't know, shadowy I guess. Like you could see in his eyes that he didn't care to hurt me. I was just some stupid lovesick pup. Ha, that picture made me see how weak I really was. Stupid.

Anyway, I'm taking another trip to Charlotte next week. If my Bud doesn't go with me, then I will probably drive over and see my Army guy. Stay with him for a couple of days. He suggested a couple of months but I think that would be pushing it. I hope to find something this time and an apartment. That's my main concern. Finding a place. Then finding just any job to get me by. I need to be where I want to be, not here. This place is eating me alive...slowly, piece by piece.

Well, since it's been awhile since I last posted I guess I should fill you in on what's been going on. I went to an interview in Huntington, WV but it wasn't worth my drive. Then, Saturday night I went to a party. I had to get up early the next morning so I didn't stay long. I did win a couple games of beer pong. I'm proud of that. I ran into some old friends from high school which was cool. Mr. Taken was there with his new girlfriend... They make a cute couple...hehehehhee...not... Oh well, he didn't want me. Now he has her..hehehehehe... OK, so I shouldn't laugh, it's just kinda funny for me. The next day I went to a Cincinnati Reds game with my Bud. We had a good time at the game. The drive to and from was hell but the game was awesome. This week has been pretty lame. I haven't gotten any calls, except from my Army guy which is really nice and nothing exciting has happened. I guess that's why I'm down. I do have a couple of charm orders though. That's some cash right there.

So, I guess I'll wrap up this pity party I'm having for myself. I do believe that I am worth so much more than what this area can offer me. I know that sounds conceded but I believe that in my heart. I believe people are threatened by me because I have a voice and when I speak I am heard. People listen and people follow. I know I'm intelligent and I know I can make the world a better place one piece at a time. And I'm glad I have that kind of faith in myself. Especially on days that I'm down......

Some people just don't understand....

Ya know, some people just don't understand things. I have friends that sometimes just don't understand things... but then I have a kick a$$ friend who just always gets me. She always hits the nail on the head... she always knows just how I am feeling. That's probably why we are so close. It's just really funny. Two seperate brains can function so closely alike. Weird!! Anyway, I had a long conversation with my kick a$$ friend today. It was good to be able to tell her everything that's been going on lately. We don't get to see much of eachother or even talk much so when we do, we make the best of it. Anyway, so I was totally stressing today about not getting any calls for any interviews. She told me not to freak out because I just want things to happen now. People need time to review applications and resumes. That eased my mind a tad and I relaxed alittle.

I got off the phone with her and a had another call. It was for an interview!!! FINALLY!!! It's not exactly what I want and it's a horrible drive but, I GOT AN INTERVIEW!!! I don't know if I will take the job. They will have to offer good money since I would be driving over an hour and twenty minutes but hey, it's an interview.

The funny thing is, I missed a call on my cell phone. I didn't know the number so I looked it up on Switchboard.com and discovered it was another place I had applied for in Athens!!! I called them back but it was after hours, I left a message so hopefully they will call me back *cross-my-fingers* for an interview!! Athens is way closer. Anyway, so things are slowly looking up for me.

I missed a call from my Army guy today. That bummed me out but I did get to chat with him and he did put a big smile on my face. Gotta love sweet talk!! You know what, flattery gets you everywhere!!! hehehhehe...

I went to the library today to take back some books. My ex coworker told me to keep in touch. I miss her. She is one of the sweetest people you will ever meet, even though she has a tough exterior. I remember one year, I had to work on my birthday. She actually stopped by with a flower, a balloon and a card. I will never forget that. That was the nicest thing ever. I actually had a tear in my eye when she left. She's an older lady but I really admire her. She's still going strong. Sure, she didn't work at my pace, but she gets it done. That's one great thing I got from working there. That and the fact that the old saying "hard work pays off" is totally false. At the library, "it's not how hard you work but how you play the game.... who's a$$ you kiss." A hard lesson learned. I still have hope that maybe someday I'll find a place that merits hard work. I gotta believe that or else this world is going to sh*t.....

What's up with that????

OK, so today I spent a leisurely day with my Bud at a Job Fair in Huntington, WV. I applied for several positions and placement agencies, some show promise. Anyway, we spent like 4 hours filling out applications and to relax, we headed to the mall. While on my way to the restroom, my cellphone rings. The number was not someone I knew but after applying to several jobs, I answered it anyway.

It happened to be a friend of my ex. Actually, a friend that I could not stand. Anyway, he went on to tell me that my ex said I had a ferret and he had a couple to sell. HOLY SH*T, I WAS JUST ON TV!!!! Ha, WSAZ showed me at the job fair talking with a recruiter!! Cool!!! Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, so anyway, I figured my ex gave him my cell number... I mean, like that was a reason to give out my cell...hell, call my house. My ex knew I couldn't stand him and it just pissed me off. You know, when you seem to be getting happier everyday *thanx to the compliments of my Army Guy* it's like my ex senses that and does something to put him back in my brain, even for a short moment, and put me into a tiny relapse. I hate that. I live life like he never existed. I wish he would do that for me. That means, forget my cell number, forget my name, and forget everything about me. I mean, hell, he forgot about me when he cheated...why not just continue that?!?!?!

Whatever... It didn't really affect my day all that much. I went and seen an old co-worker and caught up a little bit. That was nice. Of the people I worked with, there are three I am truly going to miss. But, those three are very important to me... but I know they will still be there for me whenever I need them. Those are the type of people I want to be surrounded by. Those who have a voice.. and use it!

Flash back.....May 21st... The party...

I noticed that I never posted anything of the party I kept writing about. So, a flashback is in order....dolulu dolulu dolulu *really hard to make sound effects in writing, think Garth and Wayne in Wayne's World and their flashback sound effects*

Of course, I spent the day preparing stuff for the party and I was a nervous wreck to actually get there. I arrived a little after 6 and of course I could look across the yard and see my exes house, his car setting in the driveway. Not good. I started drinking by 6:30. Now, don't think I was drinking because I was depressed or anything because that wasn't it. I was really uncomfortable and I needed to relax, that's why I was drinking. I am guessing that most people didn't really realize that it did bother me that much. It did. A lot of memories were just across the road. A lot of happy memories. It's hard to let it go when it's right across the road like that. That's why I have been living my life, totally avoiding his place and thinking like he never even existed. I don't need them happy memories. I don't want them happy memories.

Anyway, I continued to drink, we played some Volleyball and drank some more. I'm not quite sure when I was completely gone, but I believe it was before midnight. The last time I was that intoxicated was at the Athen's Halloween Block Party. My ex took me but he didn't want to spend time with me so he left me with my brother and his friends. OK, so yeah, that upset me a bit too and I got out of hand then too. It's funny how things can effect you even if you don't think they do.

Anyway, my friends took good care of me and brought me home. It was funny cause while I was passed out, I could hear what everyone was saying, I just couldn't get my body to react. I could here the guys from out of town saying how it was "too bad" I passed out cause I was "alot of fun until then." It was messed up and I have made a vow, I will never get that messed up again.

In my defense, the glass I was drinking out of was rather large. A good friend of mine brought it back from Vegas for me. It was a kick a$$ glass, but 4 drinks did me in... go figure....

OK, so that is the flashback... I am still alive so I didn't get alcohol poisoning or anything. I pulled thru like a trooper. I felt a little rough the next morning but I made it thru.

The Trip... Part 3...The End

OK, Part 3 might be a little snoozer but hey, it was my trip, I'm gonna tell ya how it went. So, the campers rolled out at 7.30 a.m. Extremely early. It was raining, dreary and just a sucky day. I left the track and headed to downtown Charlotte which was already cleaned up after the mayhem of the weekend block party. The city is sooo beautiful, you would never believe that scorns of crazy race fans didn't tear it up. Everything is so clean and orderly. I love it. I stopped at the ever-present free pamphlets on every corner. Most are realty brochures and job finders....ding, ding, ding.. Just what I needed.

Around 8:30, I headed south looking for a cheap motel. I was soo sleepy, I just wanted to find a place and crash for a couple of hours but as the hotel/motel world goes, check out is at 11 or 12, which means, no rooms until after around 2. I was soo sleepy but I drove towards Mooresville, swinging into Huntersville, also a possible place I might want to move and then on to Mooresville. I cruised by DEI but they were charging 3 dollars to park so I passed on stopping. I figure, hell, I'll stop tomorrow when it's free. Nothing was open because of Memorial day so I stopped at a freakin' Walmart...out of boredom.. *before I found the SUPER TARGET* bought some soda and munchies, grabbed a Mooresville paper on the way out and checked out the classifeds in the car for over an hour or so.

Around 1:30, I stopped at the Days Inn in Mooresville, same place I stayed in December. During checkin, the nicest lady waited on me. She was so friendly and we started a conversation. I told her I was here to find a job and move to Mooresville. She then proceded to tell me I should meet her son. She told me he is the tire carrier for 75 truck driven by David Starr in the Craftsman Truck Series which is totally cool. She said that if I needed someone to show me around tonight, she would call him and tell him a pretty girl was staying at Days Inn. I told her I would be fine, then she whipped out her pictures of him... OK, total hottie. I wanted to take back what I said about being fine and take her up on her offer. She kept saying I needed to talk to her son because we have some of the same theories and stuff. It was really really cool but I was sooooo tired I could barely keep my eyes open, plus I hadn't had a shower yet that day. She was soo sweet though and lead me in the right direction to job hunt.

I took a shower and a couple hour nap and it was around 6:00. I figured I should do something so I took out the map the lady gave me and started to drive around. I found a different way to get to the racetrack and to Concord Mills mall, hell, I figured I could do some window shopping while I was there. Not too often you get to go to a kick a$$ mall like that. So, I spent about an hour and a half in the mall, didn't buy a damn thing cause, hell, I'm unemployed. I headed back to the hotel, swinging by Toxic Hell...I mean, Taco Bell, and Wendy's for dinner. Tacos and fries, they should always be served together. I grabbed all my job papers and camped out on my king size bed...damn, I wish I was hangin' with the hot tire carrier.. Stupid me!!!

The next morning I got up, took advantage of the free breakfast and headed to the Employment place the woman told me about. 4 hours later, I had applied for three jobs, filled out all my information and was ready for another nap. 4 hours is a long time to set in an office and fill out stuff for jobs. One job is actually in the Mooresville library. I could totally do that. Anyway, went back to the hotel, took a siesta and headed back out. I discovered the SUPER TARGET which impressed the hell out of me!! A Target that has groceries too.. I would never have to enter a damn Walmart again!! I loved it!!! I almost applied but I don't know if I could live off of what I could make there so I resisted. Next time down, I will apply, definitely. I did buy some stuff from their dollar bins. I also checked out the PetsMart that is in the same complex and the Party City which is a store completely filled with party goods. SWEET!!

I swung by several apartment buildings and tried to find an apartment building I got a price from online. Yeah, that didn't happen. Got totally lost for like 2 hours. I did discover you can take the same road to get to Concord and then Kannapolis. That is pretty cool. Everywhere I wanted to be. I stopped and bought a paper in each town and headed back to the hotel. It was probably around 8:30. I hit the sack early, watching "Pretty in Pink." Wow, I live on the edge.

I got up the next morning and stuffed myself on the free breakfast and headed to DEI.

I walked around, viewing Jr's Daytona 500 car and other random trophies and checked out their showroom where you can see thru into some of the offices. Michael Waltrip was setting in a meeting and he waved at me. That was really cool.

The rest of the fans in DEI didn't even notice him in there... duh... I stopped in the gift shop, purchased Dale Jrs DVD, "Any Given Day" and decided to head home. I drove through downtown Mooresville and discovered the library. I stopped in and man is that place beautiful. They just got done adding on and it was awesome! I hope I get on there. I spent about 45 minutes checking it out and then headed home.

The closer I got to Ohio, the sadder I got. I felt like my face just started wrinkling up like I was aging 20 years because of the depression. It is the saddest feeling. I was very excited to see my animals though. I missed them the most, they didn't seem to care, but I sure missed them. So, as soon as I got home, I was back on the net applying for all the jobs I found that needed to be applied to online. One job, I know I could do well, I did get a response and they said they would contact me in two weeks when the deadline was over. I'm excited about that one. I know I could do it well. Monday is the deadline for the library position. I hope I hear from that too. I have already decided, before the end of June, I will make another trip down south. Hopefully not too long after that, it will be forever!! Anyway, that ends my trip. It had a pretty sad ending with me coming back but hopefully I will have a few good things happening in the future. I actually got a call today for a job in Athens. I need something to tide me over till I get down there. Nothing is going to hold me back though...Plus, Army Guy says he will do whatever it takes to see me when I get to NC again...

Smiles all around!!!

The Trip....Part 2

DUNH.DUNH.DUUUUHHHHH...heheheheh...anyone who knows me knows exactly what that is... (think scary piano riff) Well, it's on to Part 2 of the Charlotte trip. Well, Saturday came with more people showing up and the atmosphere getting more intense. Today is the Busch Race. The true kick off to the race weekend.

Final Practice for the Nextel Cup teams will run directly before the Busch race and then the engines will fire for the Carquest Autoparts 300. OK, so back in the day when Jr used to rule the Busch series (he has two back to back Busch titles!!) I used to really get into the Busch races. Not so now. I don't really know any of the drivers, only the Busch-Whackers...aka, Nextel Cup Drivers who race in the Busch races and Martin Truex, Jr. who drives for Chance 2 motorsports owned by Dale Jr himself.

So, a long boring race with the outcome being the Lowes car winning at Lowes Motor Speedway *It's becominng a trend!!* we finally headed back to the campsite to chill. Of course, the guys commensed in playing horseshoes, the girls took the party walk. Tonight the place was hopping. Not only was the karaoke place hopin' but there was also a live band playing on the back of a flatbed truck. OK, so to add more drama into the equation, Mr. Single came down to attend the race. Yeah, that Mr. Single who was once Mr. Taken who I had a crush on. Well, Mr. Single is now Mr. Taken again by my brother's fiance's friend. I was strongly warned that I was not to mess around with him because she didn't want her friend to get screwed over. Hummm.... I get the vibe she didn't want me with him... go figure... Lisa was right yet again!!

Anyway, it got interesting when we were walking around. He was being really nice to me, chatting it up and stuff. Well, we got to the Karaoke site and my new older friend, she shall call her Crazy Lady, Crazy Lady went up and signed us up for Karaoke. I hadn't had hardly anything to drink, plus I spotted a guy I had ran into a couple of years ago, had a fling with and we never talked again... well, not true, we ran into eachother a couple of years later and talked but I didn't really wanna talk to him so I snuck to the other side of the party group. On this side I met Army Guy. So, me and Army Guy are hitting it off pretty well. So well in fact that I bring him back to the campsite to hang out with me. Mr. Taken didn't think much of that. It was really funny, his reaction. I guess you snooze, you lose. If he wanted me, he could have had me. Oh well.. It was nice to have a hot guy totally interested in me. We exchanged numbers and emails and we are staying in contact:) Anyway, Army Guy hung out with me until 3am and then he headed back to his campsite and I went to bed.

The next morning the group went shopping at the trailers again....[I forgot to add, on Friday I met Jeff Hammond walking to a trailer. Said Hi and shook his hand] I was feeling kinda back cause I was getting a vibe from one of the guys at the campsite that he was a little interested in me. Especially when he asked when I was gonna get rid of Army Guy... Anyway, He walked around with me and offered to buy me things. Sweet guy, just really not my type. While I was gone, Army Guy stopped by the campsite to see me. He left a message with one of the people there to tell me Hi. When I got back, I went in search of his campsite. OK, not smart for a girl to do the party walk by herself. You get tons of hoots and hollers and crude comments. I didn't find his campsite and that kinda made me sad.

We all got packed up and ready to go the the Coca Cola 600. The race we had been waiting for all weekend long!! We got to our seats and they were extremely high. You could see the whole track but couldn't feel a damn thing. We couldn't even see the fly-over... the Key part to Pre-Race.

OK, so if you watched the race, you would know that it ended up being terribly long. Like 21 cautions. The outcome sucked too. Again the Lowes car winning at Lowes Motor Speedway. Go figure. I think it's really fishy. Anyway, Jr was down a lap, got it back and then wrecked him and Mikey Waltrip. It wasn't a good night for him. Which made the race even more long for me... OH well, I could listen to his sexy voice on the scanner. It made it all worth it.

Let me tell you. The ladies who sat in front of me were freakin' chain smokers. There wasn't a time during the like 7 hours we were setting there that they didn't have a cigarette in the mouth. After leaving, I was sooo sick and felt like I had smoked a pack all by myself. That has to be the most inconsiderate thing a person can do. I choose not to smoke so I don't see why I have to breath in other people's smoke. Even Crazy Lady, who is a smoker, couldn't deal with it. It was nuts. I was light headed and whoozy when it was all said and done.

We get back to the camper and my Army Guy stops to see me. We hang out with about an hour and then he leaves so I could help load up the campsite. The trip is almost over.

I think I'll chop it up to a Part 3. Not too much interesting stuff happens but, hey, it's my blog and I'll write what I want. Tune in tomorrow for more!!!

The Trip.... Part 1

OK, so I'm back from Charlotte/Mooresville. LOVE IT!!! I just love it down there... Since I had a fun filled weekend, I thought I would give it to ya in installments... OH the ANTICIPATION!!!! heheheheheh... Anyway, I would like to give a shout out to "Anonymous" for leaving some fun comments and being supportive!!! That is soo kick a$$!!! In my previous job, the term "Anonymous" caught a lot of flack but hey, feel free to use it whenever you want!!! Share you're thoughts and feelings.. this site is uneditted!!!

Now, back to my weekend... I got down to the campsite around 5:30 after a slight delay at the BMV where the ladies all had charm orders for me. It's cool that they like my charms...*shameless plug* Lisa's Custom Charms So I got down there and we went over to CTC Pole Night...aka qualifying. OK, so Jr didn't do all that well and the Rocket, Ryan Newman got the pole. Good for my bro cause that's his driver... After qualifying there was a crash car race. Picture this, derby cars running in circles crashing eachother. SUPER COOL!! Then a giant metal dinosaur thing ripped a car in half and torched it with it's fire breath. That was really cool to watch.

After this excitement we headed back to the campsite where the men commensed in playing horseshoes while the ladies took the annual campsite party walk. Every year you can walk around the campsites and there are parties going on everywhere. Everyone will offer you a cold one and shoot the sh*t. Race fans are soo friendly. Anyway, there is always a campsite that brings their karaoke machine and the party is always there. Not this Thursday night though, so we kept walking. I met a nice guy named, "PeeWee" at a campsite which graciously gave me 'beads'. PeeWee actually attends NASCAR Institute. Totally cool dude!! I also met a guy named Bryan or Ryan who gave me a ride on his golf cart and another old dude who took me for a ride on his pocket rocket!!! Now that was fun!!! Did I tell you that my old ex was with us and his fiance... that made it even more interesting... hehehehhe...

The next morning, it got HOT... Blazin' hot!!! We went shopping at the trailers for about an hour and then hung out at the campsite the rest of the day, baking in the sun. That night though was 3 Doors Down on Speedstreet!!! The girls got in their cute outfits and headed to downtown Charlotte!! OK, so if you are not a 3 Doors Down fan you would be after you seen them in concert. This happened to be my second time. After meeting "Steve-O" in the line to the port-a-john and getting our picture taken (not the real steve-o, I think his name was Dustin or Justin, something like that) we headed the rest of the way to the concert area which was already jam packed an hour and a half before the show. We squeezed our way to about 10 rows back and settled there.

Now, let me tell you, for a couple of minutes right after they took the stage I actually feared for my life. People started pushing and we were getting crushed into eachother. It was massive crazy.. But my new friend, we shall call her Lil Chic, Lil Chic had a method of backing people up... Dance Hysterically!!! It was awesome!! So, it was all worth it. Everyone else's sweat being rubbed all over your body to see 3 Doors Down rock the streets... totally worth it!!! I would do it every weekend to see those guys. They are as great in person as they are on their CDs... and freakin sexy as hell!!!! Just check out the pictures.... Yummy!!!

So, that ends Part 1 of The Trip. Tune in tomorrow for Part 2!!! C-ya!!!