Going too good....

I realize it's been a while since I last posted. I'm sorry for that. I have been really really busy. Since my last post I have made a trip home and the family has made a trip down here. I have a really great family and I am very proud of them. All is good there. My personal life, though, is getting a little rocky. Pit Guy thinks it's weird that I write on this blog so therefore this will be my last post talking about him. He hit it off well with my family. I was very proud of him. We've had some issues lately but I figured we worked them out. Only now, he decided to purchase a condo. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy for him but on the other hand selfish-low-self-esteem Lisa sees it only as a bad thing. He will move out, we will slowly grow apart, he will stop loving me and we will no longer be together. Well, he will probably find someone else before that. But, it's all out of my control. What will happen will happen. I guess if you love something, set it free and if it comes back you know it was meant to be. I guess I just need to live like that. Gawd, it's gonna be really really hard though. I am gonna miss him like crazy. And dumbass me, hell, I'm already starting to pull away from him.... Of course, any reader of my blog will know that that is what Lisa does when the relationship gets too complicated. Run for the hills, that's what I do. Always assume the worst and the worst is usually always the thing that happens. So I don't wanna get hurt again. Again, a selfish thing. His birthday is tomorrow.... it is soo weird how much I love this guy. I just don't know if it's gonna be enough. I guess we'll see how it goes.. Until then though, I am gonna hold on to the wonderful future I have created in my head with him. All the stuff we talk about doing together and all the fun we have together.... The bad stuff is on the back burner right now. I just hope the oven is still working when he walks out my door..... sigh...wish me luck and those spiritual people, pray for me...

Good times....

Well, the good times just keep coming. Me and Pit Guy had a great week together. He kinda went through a hard time because they had to put his 12 year old cat to sleep but he's working through it. We went out on Saturday night after he got back from Talladega (trucks were off so he did an ARCA deal). We hung out with Stout that night and had a really great time. Chalk up another great friend. Stout can see right through the both of us. Any problems we have together, he helps it. It's pretty cool. Anywho.... the ex texted me over the weekend. Wants to meet up when I come home... Of course I texted back that I would have to talk to Pit Guy about it... Well, Pit Guy wasn't too happy with the situation.. I don't keep secrets from him so he should be thankful for that. At least that guaranteed he was coming home with me. It should be a good time. I'm excited. I get to share my world with him. I'm so happy!!!