Plannin' my trip home...

OK, so I have finally decided to come home and visit on my next couple of days off. I miss my animals quite a bit but man, I'm gonna miss Pit Guy too!!! OK, so Pit Guy and I are getting more serious every day. We have a great time together. Monday night we went to his sister and her boyfriend's house to grill out. He tried to cook but he burnt the hell out of it. He said he was trying to make me a nice dinner.. It was really cute because he was really bummed he burnt it. We played poker that night too. Again, a great time. We just get along well. We pick on eachother and joke around. It's just really really cool.

On the other hand, Roush Pit guy really won't back off. Like last night, Pit Guy decided to get some much needed sleep and Roush Pit Guy called and asked me to a movie. I went just because I didn't wanna set around but damn, he just wants to touch way too much. By the way, we saw "The Island" a very messed up movie. I haven't told him that me and Pit Guy are an item but I did tell him I wasn't interested in him in any way other than a friend. I am gonna hate it when I have to really tell him straight up. Pit Guy also thinks that Roush Pit Guy is gonna spy on him at the track and come back and tell me everything he does. Course, that is really very interesting isn't it.... A spy I don't even need to put up to it!! hhhuummmmmm.......

Well, tomorrow I get my car looked at and Friday is my interview. Wish me luck!! Not that I want to leave my current job, I just want to have a larger income. Of course, if all goes well with Pit Guy, maybe he will get a house or move in with me... He talks like he wants us to be together forever. And before that used to freak me out but I really can't see myself getting tired of this one. I really have a great time... probably better than I should be having!! Oh well, it's all good!!!

Poker night with friends!!

OK, so the Memphis race is over and my guys are back in town. After a rough day at work which included drunks and cops, I decided to go home and watch/sleep through the race. A get a knock at my door and it's Roush pit guy. He hung out for a while and then Pit Guy called. He came over and we all hung out. Yeah, it was a tad bit awkward and I looked like crap but hell it's my place, I didn't need to get dressed up. OK, so we decided we would play poker so we all cruised over the Pit Guy's house to pick up some chips. The game is on!!!
Texas Hold'em

I play the little girl act and quickly came up with the big stack of chips....basically....Oh, you mean three of a kind is good???????

Then we all decided to put in 5 bucks and make it interesting. I quickly went from big stack to little... Now, I wasn't the first one out. Roush pit guy was... I did give Pit Guy (who plays Party Poker 24/7) a good run for his money but I came up short with a sucky flop.... I hate to lose!!

But all in all, it was a fun night among my new friends....

OK, so I'm back outa bed now...Things I forgot to tell ya!!

OK, so yeah, after I wrote the previous post I went back to bed until 10:30 so for those of you that know me and found it unbelievable, I did go back to bed!!! Plus, it was worth it for my hot Pit Guy. See, I only have to have some motivation to get going in the mornings and work never did that for me!!! heheheheh.... Anyway, I forgot to tell ya'll about my Wednesday Vinnie's night. As I mentioned before...at least I think I did. Vinnie's is the hangout on Wednesday nights. Dollar beer nights. I guess a lot of the drivers hang out there too. Anyway, I went with my Roush Pit Guy friend that night. I called Pit Guy but he didn't want to go. Anyway, so we got there and he introduced me to some of his friends. One of them was actually Todd Kluever who drives the 50 truck. I had no clue who he was until I looked it up online. He's 12th in the points though so he's pretty good. He's just a really little guy though. Anyway, it was a pretty fun night and then we came back to my place where I fell asleep and Roush Pit Guy went home. I feel bad for him though because he really wants me to be interested in him. He trys really really hard. But right now, my heart is elsewhere.

Me and Pit Guy are not an item (even though he calls me his girlfriend to his friends) but we are probably going to be here in the near future. We get along great and we can make eachother laugh. He has the cutest laugh. Anyway, I am not gonna get to see him for two days so I guess I should quit thinking about him. I guess I should probably just go to work!! Again, I would like to say, "MY LIFE IS GOOD!!!"

What ARE the chances?????

OK, so as you can tell it is 5:18 a.m. on Friday morning. I am up because Pit Guy spent the night with me and his ride comes at 6:00 to get him to fly out to Memphis, so I have to be the bad guy and get him up early and take him home. So anyway, a very interesting thing happened last night. So Pit Guy was here and at 1:38 a.m., who calls? My EX!! Yeah, the ex who stomped on my heart and crushed it into a million itty bitty pieces. That EX!! OK, so Pit Guy picked up my phone when it started ringing and told me it was an Ohio number so I answered it. The screen had went dark by the time I got it so I didn't have a clue who it was. It was someone saying, 'Lisa, can you hang up so I can call your voicemail.' I kept saying, 'who is this??' After I hung up, I looked at the number and low and behold it was the ex's cell number. Well, he calls back... OK, I was doing a little drinking and so was Pit Guy so he answered the phone when the EX called back... I know that is very mean but, hey, don't call and try to bring me down from my new life high!! WE ALL KNOW how long it took me to get over him!! Anyway, so after he hangs up on Pit Guy, I call him back and asked him what he wanted. He said he just wanted to tell me he was sorry and to have a good life and he wished me well. That he had been having a bad week and he wanted me to know that. I was like "what the f*ck ever!!" I did thank him for cheating on me because I wouldn't be here if he didn't. I feel bad because I'm sure he felt bad when a guy answered my phone. I mean, it was 1:38 a.m. and why else would a guy be with me??? But it is poetic justice because had I been alone, it would have tore me up. Again, I will say it, "life is good"!!!!!

Home sweet home....

Well, I finally have a place to call home. I little house on Pressley Ave. It is a really old house with ten foot high ceilings. It didn't look like much with nothing in it but the parents brought down my stuff and now it looks really nice. My rooms are large and my bathroom is kick ass... it was really gross but now, it's totally KICK ASS!!! My kitchen is done in orange and so is my bathroom. My bedroom is down in my tye die. I really am impressed about how it turned out. So is pit man. He couldn't believe how nice it looked. It just makes me smile. I had to mow my yard though and that was a bitch but other than that, I like it.

My parents met my friends while they were down. They met the Days Inn lady, pit man and Roush pit man. They loved them all and couldn't believe how nice everyone was. I'm glad they feel better about my move. They even liked the house after we started decorating.

It was funny because yesterday and today was my days off. Work called me today and told me that I needed to work tomorrow at a different hotel. So, now, basically, I have two jobs at two different hotels. So, I will get to meet even more people. It's all good. I'm gonna need all the money I can get!!

OK, so my life is good right now. I have someone I'm interested in and he happens to be interested in me. He came over last night and watched a movie with me. "Wrong Turn" to be exact! That movie used to make me sad because it was the movie I saw on my first date with the ex but now, I smile. I just get all giddy and goofy when I am around him. He does that to me and I love it. Hopefully it will all keep going and maybe even grow into something serious. It makes it easier to be here. I think he's gonna come over and spend the night tonight. That will be nice. I'm excited about it. Anyway, for all who miss me, I'm doing great and loving life again. I do miss my pets like crazy but Sid is here now with me so I have some companionship!! Life is good.... ha, how often did you ever see me write that... Life is good!!!

Writing from Mooresville!!

OK, so I finally made it to the library to get on the computer to let everyone know how its going. It's Awesome!!! I work with the coolest people!! I have made two friends.. one is the Days Inn lady's son of course and the other is a Roush Pit man. Ok, so I have two friends that are both on pit crew teams for the Craftsman truck series. I met Roush Pit man while I was at a bar with my other pit man. Both are really attractive and totally cool to hang out with. I went out to eat my first night with the Days Inn Lady and her son. We drove down to Davidson and ate at the Brickhouse restaurant. We walked in and Jamie McMurray was having dinner in the next booth over!! My first night and I spot a Nextel Cup driver. It was awesome. The next night I went over to the Days Inn lady's house for dinner and met her daughter and future son-in-law. Both are totally cool, plus of course her hot son, pit man was there too. OK, we yeah, me and pit man hit it off. There's a little connection there so that's really fun!! Course, Roush Pit man also stopped by and saw me at work, gave me his number to call him too. Yeah, it's been fun. These people love to party.

Right now though, the most stressful thing is looking for an apartment. Nothing is cheap and most have waiting lists. It really really sucks. I'm looking at a cute little house right now to rent. It might work, I'm not sure. Anyway, I better get off here and do some more searching. Just thought I would let everyone know how it's going!!! Wish me luck!!!

Getting very hard... I hate goodbyes

Wow, OK, so it's getting really hard. This morning I woke up and did the same thing I've done every morning for the last 13 years, I did my chores. I fed my horse, dogs, ducks, turtles. And I realized, I won't be doing this anymore. I won't hear my horse snicker at me while I'm making my way to the barn. I won't have the cold noses on my dogs right on my hands as I'm walking to the barn. I won't hear the quacks or see the bobbing heads of my turtles anymore. This is very sad for me. I can call my family and friends and talk to them on the phone, I can't do that with my pets. I know they will be in good hands, it just sucks that I have to leave them behind to follow my dreams. I also had lunch with some of my closest friends. That was hard too. I didn't break down, but I wanted to. To see the concern and love on the faces of people you really care about really means something. They will miss me but they know this is what I have wanted and what is best for me. I couldn't hug her when I walked away. That would have been too hard.

I received an email from a friend who truly believes in me. At my lowest times, he has spared advice and knowledge and kind words to me. He has so much belief in me that I feel I could do anything in his eyes. That means soo much to me. I have never got that kind of support from family or even friends. He is the only one who makes me believe in myself. I owe him a lot. He doesn't even know how much he has affected my life. If I ever won an OSCAR, I would definitely thank him!!!

My bud spent the day with me. He gave me a hug before he left. That made me cry. I went and said bye to my Grandma, even though she's ticked me off before, I still love her and she's like a best friend to me. I couldn't hug her either, I left quickly so she couldn't see me cry. When I got back home, my mother was home so I went to the barn. I didn't want her to see me cry, but she came out and hugged me and we cried together. I have to stay strong for my dad because my world ends when I see him cry. In 12 hours I will no longer call this house my home. I will be out on my own in a new city full of possiblities. I will suffer and smile all for the better!! I am excited but I do want everyone to know, each one of you (friends, family and such) has affected me in one way or another to be the person I am today and to have the strength to go it on my own. I appreciate every one of you and I will never ever forget any of you.

Don't worry, I will keep posting on the blog, I will keep making charms, I will cracking jokes... I will just be in zip 28115. Email me, I will still reply....when I get a place that is... So, I will keep a journal until I get a place and I will post everything when I get my computer set up. Stay posted and wish me luck!!

My Independence Day...

Well well well, I guess I'm celebrating the last days of my life as a Meigs Countian. Although I am extremely excited, there is sadness too. I mean, for the past 25 and a half years this has been my home. I have never been out on my own, I have never not had someone close. Being alone does not scare me, I think it's more of the possiblity of being forgotten by my friends here. I mean, they mean a lot to me. Also my animals. I hope that they will remember me when I come home to visit. I also hope that my friends will come and visit me. I want them to be a part of my new life as well. I want to show them my new hometown.

Last night, me and my bud went to the drive in to see "War of the Worlds" and "The Longest Yard". It was a nice night just hanging with my bud. I'm worried about him though. He's taking it kinda rough. I hope he is OK about it. See, I do care about others. I don't want this to be hard on anyone. I hope that my parents will make the trip to see me on occasion. Right now, they never leave home. It would be nice for them to just get away sometime and now there is a reason too. I also hope that my brother and his fiance will come and see me. I believe this move will do wonders for our relationship. It's slowly gotten better over the years, but for a long long time it wasn't working at all.

It's ironic to think that today, on Independence Day, I am pretty much celebrating my independence. I'm packing my bags and getting ready for the biggest event in my life. A pivotal point that will pretty much determine the direction of my future.... Scary but extremely cool!!! I'm confident I will be fine, I will achieve my dreams and achieve happiness I have never felt before....

GOOD NEWS!!!!!

OK so this morning I was lying in bed, sleeping.... and my cellphone rings!! It was the nice Days Inn lady from Mooresville. She said, "How soon can you be back down here??" I said, "This week sometime, why????" She said, "My boss has a job for you!!" I'm there, I've got a job in Mooresville!! It's on like DONKEY KONG...shout out to my little buds!!

OK, so this might sound lame, but Friday night when I went to bed, I prayed. I asked God to send me a sign this weekend about what it is I need to do... Then on Saturday I got a call from Gabes.. I thought, man, is this what I'm supposed to do? Then this morning this call.. I'm definitely meant to be in Mooresville. I've definitely meant to follow my dreams!! Yeah, my heart's kinda tugging right now for my family, friends and my animals. I mean, I can't take them all with me until I get some place that can have pets... I just hope my family understands that this isn't where I need to be in my life. I mean, geez, still living at home is the worst feeling ever.

Anyway, I just thought I would share the news. I got down Wednesday morning!! I'm gonna be OK, my life is looking up and I think this is gonna change me for the better!!

DAYTONA!!! YEAH!!!!

Waitin' on Rain!!! The Pepsi 400 is tonight. My racing buddy is there without me. With the lack of money, I couldn't go even though he called me while I was in Mooresville to see if I was available. The green flag was delayed over 2 hours for rain. It's about time to get it started. Yippee...maybe Dale Jr will do good night!!

OK, so the trip to Columbus was alright. I wasn't impressed with the advertising agency but the commercial turned out cool as hell!!! I spent the whole day being referred to as "the chauffeur" and then asked what high school I go too... that really sucked!!! OH well, I guess everyone has their days. OK, so I got a call for an interview today... not a good interview in Mooresville either but just a crap job around here. OH well, I'll go and see what pans out.

Today was a beautiful day, lots of sun and breeze. My mother and I worked on my turtle/duck pond all day long... Yep, the ducks are still alive and thriving in their new habitat. Of course I'm gonna include a pic!!

Here is a picture of the turtle/duck pond.. I dug it myself!!

Harriet and Lloyd seem to enjoy relaxing in their new pool!

Phelps loves to catch some sun!!

Here is Squirt and Thorpe chillin' in there new pad!!

OK, so the last installment of Poems from the Past is upon us.. I have some other random poems I will post later on but here is the last official bunch..... enjoy....

Space

To touch a star,
To breathe the sky
To exist only on a
Breeze in the open
Wilderness of a universe.
Tossing planets
Mythically like
white sand on
black top.
To be a star
That breathes the
Sky, only in a dream.

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Glitter water catches light
And makes it dance.
Gracefully.

Titanic

She held on tight but maybe too long,
He pulled her under and showed her
The future. She struggled loosely,
To stay in the present, but the premonition
Of knowing the future, she couldn't bare.
The future was shown and came too fast,
Now she lies on the bottom in an ugly mass.
He would show her mangled body
Rust-covered, in pieces to a world who still
Thought her beautiful. Yet some people cried
For she didn't just destroy her future, but
The lives of those which she carried. They traveled
The ship of dreams, only to end on a cold, calm night.
Heaven breathed down apon
Them and carried their cries, ending their pain.
She held on too long, and now she knows,
But she'll be remembered as long as the wind blows.

The crack

A tiny gully is this crack,
It's life collection
Reflexes its tedious existence
By which man has created.
Within the crack the world echoes
An empty moan.
Death exists in the crack, like the future.

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Silent laughter
Heard by a deaf man
The mime was being tortured
The audience applauded.

Ship of Dreams

A ship of dreams she once was called
Now deep in the ocean lies her hull.
Rusted and mangled; dead to the earth,
Many lives were lost under her fateful curse.
The echo of arrogance still sits on the waves,
That once hushed the cries of all who were not saved.
Some people say that the night lives on
But in reality the ship of dreams in gone.
The grandest ship to ever set sail
Was doomed at port and succeeded to fail.
Fearless they went into the unpredictable sea
But the last song they heard,
Nearer my god to thee.


Magician

A mystic smile, dark, silent.
He taps his wand upon a box.
Like waking from a dream, it disappears.
The smile again.
He turns to a table, taps again,
The box appears.
Smile again.
The magic surprises many and
The smile teases all
But look closer
Cause up his sleeve he hides
His tricks.

River

The water sparkles
Live a million adoring fans
Are trying to take a picture
Of the beauty that does not
Exist in my life.

Wild romance

Our souls shook hands
By means of our tongues
Then the roof of our cab blew off
And no one seemed to notice
Our relationship flew out the back
And came crashing to the ground.
I just smiled, sat back
And enjoyed the fall into his eyes.

Twilight

The sky is swept with strands of color
As the setting sun paints the days farewell
Memories fill my mind like mystical spirits they decend
To capture and possess my heart.
Filling it with beauty much like
The golden twilight.