Remembering Molly.....

Tonight, my best friend died. Although she is hundreds of miles away from me, I am still hurting. I received a phone call from my parents. Molly was sick. My best friend for 16 years, who has loved me unconditionally without question for 16 years is gone. I hope she went peacefully. I wish I could have been holding her when she went... but I wasn't. I hope she realized how much I loved her and how I will miss her. All dogs go to heaven right?!?!?!

I remember when I was 10 and I got her, she was soo cute. There is a message on the garage wall to this day, "I love Molly". I cut it in the insulation; 16 years ago. Wow, how the time flys by. I always told myself that Molly would never die. She would outlive me... That is the hardest thing to come to terms with right now. I guess she's in a better place. No more pain and hurting.

I remember one time, she got in trouble for going in my grandmas house because someone left the door open. My dad drug her all the way back home and tied her up. After that, I promised her I would never let anyone hurt her. She got in trouble again and Dad came after her, she ran behind me for protection and never again did she get in trouble. Don't get me wrong, my Dad loved her just as much as me. We shared her and since I have been gone, Dad has really stepped up and taken care of her.

I'm at work right now. Surrounded by my new people and new friends. Far away from my comfort zone of family and friends. I will be driving home tomorrow. I will mourn the passing on my best friend... Sumner Magic Molly

5/23/1990 - 3/23/2006.

Rest in peace dear friend.

Idols and Ice Age 2

OK, so two huge things are coming into my life.... American Idols top 12 and Ice Age 2: The Melt Down. OK, so yeah, neither really affects me greatly but I love them both just the same. OK, Idols... My picks right now are Chris, Taylor and Catherine to the final three. Melissa got booted on Wednesday night which was a long time coming, I believe. I think next week will be (without hearing their next performance) Bucky and Kevin in the bottom two with Bucky going home. Of course, I could be wrong but I can take a stab in the dark.

OK, Ice Age 2: The Melt Down.... As most of you know, I LOVE the Ice Age movies. I actually named, Sid, my ferret, after Sid the Sloth. I am totally excited to go to the theater to watch it on March 31st. My pet piave though....where the HELL is the merchandise. I have been searching for a Sid plush doll for 4 years now. I figured with the new movie coming out, they would be hitting a store near me.... in my crazy google search, I did notice they will be in Target stores....IN AUSTRAILIA... That certainly doesn't help me in the least. My Ebay search which has been in my favorites search for over 2 years comes up with several going into the 40 dollar price range. Can you believe that??? I mean, all I want is a Sid doll. One I can squeeze. My mother searched a long time at christmas for one. Unless you wanted to pay big bucks, you can't find them around here. OK, so the mission is if anyone knows where I can retrieve a Sid Doll, please email me!!! I really really want one!!!

Well, in other news. Life is good, the weather has went from 40's to 80's to 50's but the 80's day for freakin' gorgeous. The trees are blooming and the race season is on. Can't get any better than that!! Well, I guess I should head off to work. Over and out.......

Mardi Gras!!!! NC Style!!!!

Well well well.... I've been having a great time lately!!! Workin' out three or four days a week, feeling great!!! It's going really good.... The man thing is going really good too but I'm not gonna write about that. I AM gonna write about my bar trip with some girls that I hung out with... OK, so we all met at a Pure Romance (dildo/adult toy party) and decided to hit the NV Lounge for Mardi Gras night. The boys decided to do a boys night out since the girls were all buying toys!! Anyway, as you can tell by my picture, I had a freakin' awesome time!! All innocent but totally fun!! You can see all the pictures from that night at www.lknfun.com(look under photos, NV Lounge Mardi Gras 2/25) but here's my favorite.

I'll admit that I was a tad bit liquered up but it was a blast!! The place was packed and everyone was totally cool. It was a big change from the last time I was there when I was really down on myself. I realize that being happy and in a bar is totally different from being depressed in a bar. And I was with my closest girlfriend down here so that was really cool too. Even her fiance came and we had soo much fun. She's more like my friends up home. Not really into the bar scene but when she goes out, she has a great time!! It was totally awesome and it's something I will remember for a long long time. Gawd, it's good to be happy....

I have been getting some really nice emails from people who read my blog. I want people to know that they are not alone... just as I am not alone whenever I'm down. Be it friends or strangers, someone is always there for me with kind words and I'm grateful for that. I know some people find it weird to share your live in blog form but it's very therapetic and I don't regret anything I've ever written. I do hate how I tend to focus so much on the bad and not on the good. I mean, if you look at my posts there are a couple of posts about the good but I really write when there is bad going on. And that's not really fair. So just remember, everyday that I'm not writing is generally a good or even a great day. And lately, the good have outweighed the bad. And see, I'm posting good today!!!

I'm not saying that everything in my life is great... I do have some personal issues I have to deal with but it's not to do with anyone but me... Not relationship related or anything... Hopefully all will go well...

Well, I'm heading home this weekend to see the family and especially my pets. It's amazing how much I miss them when I don't see them for over a month. It's really hard to see people with dogs and horses and for me to know that mine are soo far away. I also really want to see my grandma. I really miss her and I don't call her enough. I'm gonna spend some time with her and maybe hang out with some friends but its gonna be a long week. But I will survive!!!

OH, on another note, have anyone seen the short film, "Chubb Chubbs"???? This 5:37 minute film won the Oscar for short film in 2002 and it is 5 minutes of pure joy. If you can get ahold of a copy, I recommend you see it!!! The Chubb Chubbs have a special place in my heart now!!! 5 stars all the way....