Keepin Busy.....

So the water is here again. In September we had horrible flooding. Pomeroy was underwater. Same thing again.... Marietta, Athens, Pomeroy all have flooding.. It's crazy.. Course that didn't stop me from keeping busy. Thursday night I went with my girlfriend to see "The Aviator", the bioepic of Howard Hughes. It was very good. I am reading his bio right now and he was a very intriguing man. Yeah, he went crazy but wouldn't it be awesome to meet a man who has big dreams and makes them happen!! That's the kinda man I want. Anyway, there was some parts in the movie that were mixed around to make him seem crazier than he was and I didn't like that, but all in all, Leo should win his Oscar!! He deserves one.

So, my girlfriend and I went to the mall to see the movie and we did some shopping. I was a nervous wreck because the possiblities of seeing the ex with his girlfriend was very high. See, he had his schedule set to where he had the same days off as I did. I hate that now!!! So, there was a chance that he could have been there. Course, I find it extremely funny that he takes this new girl to the mall all the time when he was selling his plasma to have gas money to drive to college. He couldn't afford to take me out. Of course, I didn't care, I didn't need taking out. I was just happy to have him around, but hell, that all changes.

Last night I made the trip to my guy guy's stomping ground. We chilled at his house and watched movies all night long. It was a good time but I figured in his comfort area he would pick up the pace.. Wrong!! So, yeah, I'm getting a little frustrated. I mean, I want to be with someone who seems interested in me. You know. Someone that makes me feel attractive. When he does step it up, I feel that way but a lot of the time, I just feel like a friend hangin' out. I dont know.

I have had many conversations through email with my M&M's guy. He at least makes me feel like he's interested in me. The things he says and stuff. He seems like a really awesome guy and I get all goofy and stupid when I get an email from him. Kinda like a giddy school girl, y'know. That awesome feeling. I get that with my guy guy too but then it fizzles when he doesn't play with me. You know, flirt back and stuff. I love to do that. I love to seem like I'm really sneaky but basically it's very obvious what I am trying to do. Like I asked the M&M's guy where would be the best place to run into him? He, of course, played along and said we could possibly 'run into' eachother at a restaurant or a movie sometime... See, I love that. I love that playing. Even if he's not interested, sure does make me feel good. Puts a smile on my face. Course, I get that smile on my face after my guy guy kisses me... Probably cause he doesn't do it very often and when he does, I feel like he's interested and possibilities start rolling through my head.... And then, it takes him like 4 more hours before he kisses me again... Can you see where I'm having the issues?!??!!? It will be fine though. I can handle it. Just not used to not being in the drivers seat!! I mean,I could asked him to let me drive, but then that might freak him out, so I'll set patiently in the passenger seat and wait it out.

On another note, my cousin called me last night and told me she was getting married!! And she asked me to be in the wedding... Hell yeah, she is my favorite cousin. When she lived down here, we were inseperatable. I love her to death and she deserves the most beautiful wedding ever. That was really good news!!

Also, 4 days until I leave for my interview. It's getting really really close. I hope it's not some stupid job, you know. I mean the companies website is very vague about what the job actually is and what they actually do. That makes me nervous. I mean, I want the job, if it's an awesome job, but I don't want to move if I'm gonna hate my job and want to quit. I know you see what I'm saying.

Anyway, I should get off here. I need to quit skipping days and then having a massive long post. I'll try to do better... Oh, another thing. I printed off the Survivor application. It's due in by the 14th. I hope I can get everything together by then and get it sent out. I should be able to handle a 3 minute video. The passport might be the problem:( Oh well, I'm gonna try!!! Wish me luck....