Back up the ladder....

OK, so I'm heading back up the ladder a couple rungs. I met my guy guy last night and had a really good time... I guess there are nice guys out there. To top of my great night, my ex replied to my email about the stuff I wanted back. Come to find out he started seeing her the week after Thanksgiving... Yeah, that would be one week after we broke up. Nice huh!! *plus, now stupid is that, a new girlfriend right before christmas so you have to buy her something... good lord!!* He said that she approached him and he said that I was going out and having fun so he figured he should too. He told her he had cheated on me. I bet that will always be in the back of her head, if it isn't then she's gonna have a rude awakening.

See, I feel sorry for him. He has no friends. My friends were there to pick me up after I fell. He had none. He never had any at least while we were dating. I knew he would latch onto a girl because he has no one else to hang out with. I even said that while we were dating. I told him that if we ever broke up he would need a new girlfriend right away...Ding ding ding, Lisa is right again... Go figure. Well, some people say I should look at it like she's his rebound, it won't last. Well, I really don't care if it does or not. Yeah, I hope she breaks his heart so he can feel one ounce of the pain I felt, but if not, who cares. He wasn't good enough for me anyway. *I'll probably eat those words in the future when/if I've hit the bottom again.*

OK, so this email he sent me didn't upset me so much. It just brought back the anger and I wrote some really mean things back to him. He said the last two months were it for him. Ok, well, it's either August and September before he cheated on me that he couldn't stand me or October and November after he cheated on me and hell yeah, there was a big change. I guess I should just remember that we actually broke up on around October 8th. I should just look at it from that point. That would make it OK for him to move on. I guess though when he came back to me and told me he wanted to be with me, that would cancel that out though. I don't know.

I took about three large steps to moving on last night. It felt really good. I'm not gonna say that my ex wasn't in the back of my mind most of the time because he was, but I had this great guy hanging out with me and that felt great. I do realize I'm not ready for anything major. I think I need a lot more time for that. Time to start to open up again. It will come with time... I guess time heals all wounds, or so they say....