Another day gone....

Well, another day of my vacation down... Not better, not worse, just a day gone by. I made my reservations for my hotel room in Charlotte so I am definitely going tomorrow. My main reason is for the Stocks For Tots (NASCAR drivers will be signing autographs for toys being donated to needy children) but also to look around and possibly put in some applications and resumes. It's time for me to make something happen in my life. I have nothing holding me here besides my family and friends. And although they are great, they can't really give me all the happiness I need. I need to find happiness in a career. I want to be a better person. I want to live my dream. Nothing's happening here.

My ex told me to go and chase my dream after he broke my heart but you know, I would have gladly taken him with me. I would have shared my dream with him, but it wasn't his dream at all. He just wanted a family and a house in the middle of nowhere...course, then it would be harder for him to cheat on his wife...OK, so that was harsh. I still believe "Once a cheat, always a cheat". I believe that he will do it again. Or maybe he won't. Maybe I just didn't mean anything to him. OK, so I need to stop this. I can't keep thinking about it. This damn vacation on top of Christmas is eating me alive. Well, I'll go to Charlotte and spend the night. Friday is the Emerson Drive Concert with my friends. Sunday we will leave to go skiing. I should be full up until Christmas. Then, after that, it's back to work....thank goodness!!! Anyway, I guess I'll keep this post short since nothing is happening in my life. Boy do I suck.....