A Neutral Day....

Nothing exciting happened today. No major thoughts or breakdowns, no new prospects for love. Just a day gone by. Two more days of work and I'll be on vacation until after Christmas... It frightens me. How can I occupy my mind for 17 days in a row? What am I going to do? You know, I was thinking about where you go to meet new men. I don't believe you meet someone worth while in a bar. I don't really enjoy going to bars on a regular basis but where else can you go to pick up men? My cousin suggested the internet. Internet dating is in right now but for some reason, that scares the p*ss out of me. I guess I have some major trust issues.

I have been chatting with some guys and that has been fun. I get the feeling they would be really great guys to date if they were around here. But of course you have to wonder if those same guys would give you a second look if they passed you in the mall. You send them the pictures you think you look good in. You don't send them ones of how you really are. I guess you get to see what kind of personality a person has when you are chatting. I would like to think that is my strongest aspect. That's what keeps my Dale Jr dreams alive. I don't think I could win him over with my looks but if he would spend a week with me, I really think he would fall in love with my personality. I am proud of my personality. I might be a little pessimistic and a lot sarcastic but at least I'm fun. At least I like to make people laugh, if its at me or with me. I love to hear laughter, it's very addicting. Even my own laughter......