And so it begins.....

Well, usually after break ups, there is tons of bitterness. I chose to live my life like he never existed. At least for the next couple of months... I guess he's already trying to turn people against me and he probably doesn't even know it. He can't just leave things between me and him. I don't care if he talks but don't hurt others in the process. I don't even care what he says about me. I know who I am and what I am.

He said I wasn't there for him when he was having problems. He said I didn't care. I didn't need to care, we weren't together but I sucked it up and spent those couple of days with him, trying to be there for him and help him through it... but I wasn't there...I guess...

I'm just watching "The Hills" on MTV... The New Years episode where Jason threatens to leave Lauren right after the New Year.... Ha, that is exactly my ex. Except it was Christmas. We were going to make it through Christmas and then break up. I'm glad I'm not the only one who's went through that.

Oh well, and so it begins... the bitter road of breakupdom.

I went out last night with some friends from work. I had a great time and I'm glad we did. Beats setting at home and being sad. That's not who I am and it's not what I want to be. I want to be happy... I'm far from it right now, but I'm going to find it again....