I guess life still goes on...
Well, another boring weekend. I went out with friends on Friday night and sat home and watched the Budweiser Shootout on Saturday night. Nothing exciting happened. And even the race sucked. It just seems like my life is at a standstill. Friday afternoon I had lunch with my good friend, Dave. He always makes me feel like I am a valuable person... I mean, he believes great things are going to happen for me. Its always awesome to be around him because he thinks highly of me. I guess I don't get that feeling from too many people. I let me in on a job opening too which I greatly appreciate. I came home and did everything I needed to apply and mailed it out on Saturday. Maybe things are looking up, it's just happening really slow. Another friend also made the comment that I am too educated to be doing the job I'm doing. I believe that too. I've got my fingers crossed for this job I applied for and I hope that something great will come of it.
On the personal side, well, it's at a stand still. I haven't heard from my guy guy since I talked to him on Tuesday night... this is not a shocking surprise to me based on my revolution that he just wants to be friends... a small part of me wants to be wrong though, but usually on these matters, I'm dead on.. I have been talking to other guys but it seems I can't really let go of my guy guy. I need too. I need to just do my own thing and get him off my mind... Maybe I'll meet someone who can do that for me. I mean, my guy guy did that for my thoughts of my ex, so maybe someone else will come along and take my mind off things.. that would nice.
Anyway, my horse still isn't feeling well. It's really getting me down in the dumps to see her like that. Hopefully, I'll hear from the vet tomorrow and the healing process can begin. The stress is not a good thing to deal with... I just want her back to normal.
Well, let us not forget about Loser Lisa Day tomorrow. That ought to do me a world of good. My girl friend that I hang out with on the weekends has been chasing after a friend of mine. He's kinda weird but she was doing pretty good with him. Last night, they went out and he told her he needed to focus on his job so he doesn't want a girlfriend and he doesn't want to lead her on. What a crock!! BUT, at least she got an excuse. My guy guy didn't even do that for me. I would settle for a puthetic line like that. Just to KNOW that he didn't want to be with me. That would probably help me out a ton. Oh well, I just talk with my friends who are out of state, the unobtainable ones and think about if I was near them, they would date me. I guess I have to hang on to that thought so I don't feel totally worthless. Guys don't know what they do to girls when they don't give answers, they just walk away. I mean, I think I deserve an explaination about what is wrong with me. What I can fix to be attractive to a man. See, I'm blaming myself and I don't even know if I'm the one to blame for him not calling. Maybe his issues weigh heavier on him than I thought they did. Well, you know, don't ask someone out if you aren't completely ready. And seriously, I'm not talking about anything serious. I don't think I've ever given that impression, I just wanna hang with him and have fun. He shouldn't put himself out there is he doesn't want someone to grab ahold. Oh well, another lesson learned by Lisa. Damn, I'm gonna be a dating genius by the end of all this.... Well, back to the drawing board...
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