Another fun weekend....

OK, so it's becoming a habit of mine to hang with my friends and do some drinking...of course, I get attention and feel wanted when I do so I guess that makes it OK... kinda!! Anyway, again, went to see the band play, they are truely awesome!! I remember more than one song this time!!! I'm really impressed... So, after the party everyone went to the local dive bar... then to my brothers house to continue the party. It was a good time. Me and my brother are getting along better than we ever have. It's kinda funny. My father told me when I was going over there...."NO FIGHTING"!! It's cool. He is getting married and I love my future sister-in-law... hhehehehe...she ran across my blog last week and my brother got in trouble cause he didn't say he went out last weekend....Oops!!! OK, so my brother has some hot friends... OK, two.. and then a whole bunch of other friends I don't really know. Does make it interesting partying with his cute friends who think I'm hot and my brother watching over me.. I guess that's good and bad... I mean, his friends aren't the best people to hook up with. Not keepers by any means.. and if they are keepers, they are already caught by someone else.... damn it!! Anyway, it was still fun! It's nice to see guys looking at you in an 'interested' way.

Anyway, well, I invited my guy guy to see the band.. He said he had plans and that he would call. I figured, if he called maybe he was still interested. Nope, no phone call so I guess I have my answer. He knew I was interested so if he wants me, he can call me. I'm not gonna be the pest that calls all the time. I can take a hint.. I guess I need to quit meeting guys. They meet me and don't like me.. I'm not sure why. I asked my guy friends this weekend what was wrong with me.. Of course, they aren't gonna tell me the truth. But they couldn't figure out why my guy guy wasn't interested. They think I'm pretty and fun. I just don't get it. Course, maybe I'm just too fat. Maybe I'm a bitch. I don't know. it's really starting to get to me though. I guess I need to change who I am. I mean, my ex can have a steady already. Why can't I? He's not a better person than me. I'm really serious about that. He's not. He's girl even knows he cheated on me. I don't get how someone can date someone like that. I guess he probably painted me out to be a bitch and that I deserved it.. Hell, maybe I did. I don't know. I just know I could never cheat on someone like that. I would respect the person enough to break up with them. Tell them I didn't want to be with them anymore. Not take the easy way out. Man, I would love for him to cheat on her. I know that's horrible but I don't want it to just be me he cheated on. I really thought he loved me. I guess the lack of answers is still getting to me. Oh well, I'm moving on....slowly, but I'm moving on. Well, I gotta get to work. I guess I'll do some job searching and soul searching...