I figured it out....

OK, so last night I was lying in bed and I figured out what's going on between me and my guy guy.. We are just friends.. That's it. It has to be that. I rehashed the things we talked about on the phone Tuesday night and he said something to make me believe he might have wanted more but in a state of almost sleep I realized, he would ask a 'friend' to do the same thing. I guess I was just dumb and wasn't picking up on it. I mean, there were tell tale signs a couple of weeks ago that something might have been there but I think that fizzled out and I had to make that stupid comment about if he just wanted to be friends, that's cool with me... but, see I made that comment way before the actual signs took place so you can see where I might become confused. It's OK now. I figured it out. Not to say that if he did want something else I wouldn't jump on it, I just have to focus my energy elsewhere and just look at him as a friend. I guess I can do that.

On another note, a co-worker called me yesterday to inform me that my ex was in her branch and started talking to her about what went on between me and him. I never really told her the entire story because I don't see her often and we are not that close but she said that he said he cheated on me. She told him she didn't know what he was talking about. Which is cool. Now he knows that I didn't talk about it to everyone. It ticks me off that he has to bring it up. Oh well, ole chunky butt can hang out in town, being all cool with his speakers blasting. A true sign of an intelligent individual.

The only reason I brought up this incident was because it didn't bother me. I am really doing better. I was glad to hear that she had my back and wasn't all nice and cheery to him. I do like that. Plus, he knew it would get back to me that he was in there. Well, I don't really care. As long as he respects me enough to not come to my branch, I'm OK with it. I mean, I don't go to his workplace. Instead I drive another 15 minutes to go to another store. Yeah, it sucks that I let him change the things I used to do before I met him but to avoid any weird feelings, I'll take the extra time, plus there is a chance I could run into someone new at the other store.

Anywho, the equine vet is coming today to look at BarBea, my horse. She hasn't been feeling well for the past two weeks and I want to help her feel better. The woman is 50 minutes away so it's gonna cost me for the house call but you know, I would pay anything to get her feeling better. She is my pride and joy. I love her to death. I've had her for 13 years and whenever I'm down, I just go out and hang out in the stall with her. And whenever she's down, I do the same thing. I get up every two hours and check on her. It will be nice if the vet can fix her... I'll keep you posted!

Me and BarBea
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