Ha....I laugh at myself....

Hehehehe.... when I closed out my last post, I thought I would have something interesting to post after the weekend....hahahahahah.. boy was I wrong... Yeah, it seems my guy guy calls every day but Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays. So I didn't do much. Saturday night I did get my guy buddy to go to Athens with me to the bars and we met my girl friend there. It was a pretty good time. Of course I called my guy guy after I was out and about. I didn't want to call him while I was setting at home. I didn't want him to think that I just set around and wait for him to call. Although I really sorta do. I have decided not to worry about the situation. I called him and told him I wanted to hang out this week sometime. After that, whatever happens happens. I don't know what he wants from me, I don't know how to handle the situation, I don't know what's going on. I don't want to say I don't think he's interested because I think he is... at least interested in something.. Maybe just being my friend, maybe more. I really don't know. I also don't know how to approach the subject. I mean, right now, I think he has more issues than I do. I could go either way. I could fall really hard if I let myself, or I could just be a friend to him. All he has to do is point me in whatever direction he wants me to go. I could be a kick ass girlfriend to him, or I could be a kick ass friend. Course, I would have to focus on finding someone else.. but I would still be his friend.

I just know that my ex is pretty much outa my head. I'm ready for anything thats thrown at me....I think... I did find myself analyzing why I go to bars every weekend. It's because it's a guaranteed place for me not to run into my ex. He's only 20 so he can't get into bars. I guess that's a little messed up but at least I am moving on. At least I would like too. Well, Loser Lisa Day (aka Valentine's Day) is just around the corner. Not that it bothers me to be alone, I just know it's gonna be a hard day. He has someone new and the last time I felt really loved by him was last year on Valentine's Day (now known as Loser Lisa Day). Oh well, it's one of those hurdles you have to jump on the road to recovery.

Anyway, I yeah, I don't get why he doesn't call on the weekends. I don't get why he doesn't ask me out all week long when he calls. Do I need to ask him out?? Do I need to call him on the weekends?? Someone help me out!! I'm clueless.. I mean, I don't know... Geez.... Oh well, I guess I'll get off here. Maybe get in the hot tub...alone.... yeah, I know.... I'm a loser....