Revolution!!!

OK, so I had a rough day... Today was the two month mark for well... a certain thing. I'm kinda getting aggitated at my guy guy for not stepping it up. It's is just weird how he is. But, when I get on the phone with him, I get sucked into his...well, his 'funness'. It's weird. It's like everything I was mad at him for, disappears and I smile like a little school girl. Anyway, I need to give up on him but I'm just not willing to yet. I did talk to a NASCAR guy today. Well, not actually NASCAR but a racer. So, I'm interested in him but I have this hang up with my guy guy.. I guess, he got to my heart first. Anyway, it's just all really weird at the moment.

So I decided to hang at my guy buddy's apartment tonight. I had plans on going to my guy guy's house. I was all dolled up and stuff... even had the dreaded thong.. I don't wear them for fun, you know. Anyway, I ended up at my buddy's watching TV. Well, I left about 15 till 11pm. I figured I would swing thru Wendy's on my way home and get something to eat (breaking my 'don't eat after dark' diet or as my guy guy would say, the 'Rock Star' diet), well, who happened to be setting in the parking lot with some other hoods....yep, my ex. Can you believe that?!?!! I had just got done telling my guy buddy about not seeing him since mid december and I see him there. But you know, I didn't get freaked about it. A tiny knot in my stomach but nothing major. The biggest thing for me was to see that he had put on weight. He was not the guy I fell in love with. Not at all. He isn't model material. He's not even "want back" material. I'm glad. I'm glad to know that that part of my life is fading away. All the crazy feelings I had for him are slowly leaving me a better, more beautiful person. I really will be fine!! I never really believed that until tonight. He was hanging out with this trunk up with his speakers on display just like every other kid that hangs out in town. The ones I always thought were horribly stupid. That is what he was gonna be before he met me. I'm glad he's back on track!! I'm glad he is the person I didn't want to date. Of course, his girl wasn't with him so that made it easy on me. After the night I had, I probably would have lost it!! But all is well in Lisaville!! The sun will rise tomorrow to a beautiful day. I love it.....welcome, my new life....