Day after Loser Lisa Day....

Well well well... I made it through the dreaded Loser Lisa Day... Didn't really get down. Probably what bothered me the most was the fact that I haven't heard from my guy guy. But, you know, I figured it out, I should just realize that I am right and not be surprised... which I'm not really. Just kinda up in the air about it I guess. I mean, I've got new prospects in the works. One I really think would be a fun time. We will call him blue eye guy. So, I'm supposed to go out with blue eye guy next weekend. He lives a couple of hours away but I think it would be worth the trip. He seems really nice. I'll keep you posted on that one. Other than that, I'm starting to feel really single. You know, when you feel totally alone. Not depressed, but alone. As long as I keep an interest in someone, I'm good. That's all I need..Plus, race season is here!!!

Since race season is back, I have one more friend I'll be talking to regularly. That's my racing buddy... the one I was with when my ex cheated. He's a huge race fan like I am and we talk shop all the time. He was once the perfect guy in my eyes... but he was the first person to not be interested in me. I chased him, caught him, but he threw me back. It wasn't bad though, I got an awesome racing buddy from it. At least he was up front about it. Now, he did send me some mixed signals too but in the end, he was up front. I respect that, unlike my guy guy...

On another note, a wonderful thing happened today. A great experience in adulthood!! I officially OWN my car today!!! It is mine!! I have been paying on it for years. Today, I walked into the bank, wrote out a check and paid off my loan.... Gotta love tax refund money!! Now, I will have more money to pocket each month... well, ok, to save!! Man, it was the best feeling... To know that I own something... If someone would sue me, there is actually something they could take from me... now I just need to get my student loan paid off and I will be somewhat debt free.... Ha, that will be years and years down the road... But hey, I OWN my car!!! It's mine!! I was doing the happy dance all the way out of the bank (ok, not really but I was dancing in my head!!). Anyway, maybe things are starting to look up for me... hopefully I will hear from that job and begin another chapter of my life, not based on a man!!! Based on me and my career, the only thing I really see in my future!!! Come on life, I'm ready!!!