I'm sooo old now....

Well, don't you hate it when you quit getting carded at the bars. It's a sign that your old and I'm now the ripe old age of 27 almost 30 and it sucks. I had a great birthday though. My friends at work had a little party for me which was totally fun... I got some beautiful flowers from an admirer and my friends took me out for drinks after work. It was all in all a good birthday. One friend introduced me to another prospective guy. He wasn't too bad. It was a really strange night with admirers all over the place. You know, when those flowers showed up, a very small part of me wished they were from the ex... Not to get back together or anything, just to be nice. I mean it wasn't a bad breakup and I feel like people think it was. Heck, maybe he thinks it was, I don't know. All I know is, I did nothing to hurt him, and he did nothing to hurt me. It wasn't bitter....until his mother got in it. Oh well, I don't really care. He didn't get me anything last year when we were dating AND living together so why would I think he would get me something this year?!?!?! Dumb I guess..

I've been good. I've been hanging with a new guy friend...key word is friend. For some reason, right now I'm in this place where I'm not attracted to anyone. I'm just kinda living for myself. It's not a bad place at all. I've set my standards alot higher than they have been, hell, maybe unreachable. But with the amount of suitors I have asking me out, I don't think it's too wrong of me to aim high. I mean, I really believe I deserve to be treated great. I'm not settling this time. I settled with all the others and I got hurt. I got hurt by someone that wasn't even what I really wanted. That time has passed. I am 27 years old and I've learned from my mistakes. Don't get me wrong, I'm still making them, but I have a mental notebook with a list of the things I don't want in life. A compilation of all my past relationships. I also have a very small list of the things I liked from my past relationships, and qualities I would like to find in my next possible man.

I think I'm right where I need to be...