Guess what trip I'm takin' again....

Yeah, remember the reason the blog was created... Well, I'm gonna go on that same trip again. I guess the inevidentable finally happened. Pit Guy moved out. It was a long time comin' I guess I just didn't want to believe it. You know, I thought my other ex made an impact on me, Pit Guy, he takes the cake for heartache. He just dragged his out longer. He didn't cheat or anything, we just couldn't make it work. It wasn't all his fault, I know you all know that but it just didn't work. I wish it did. I have never been in love like that before. But I picked myself up from the last one, I can do it again. The only difference is I'm not surrounded by my family and friends. I feel really really alone.... But I know I'm not alone, I do have friends here, it's just I don't know what life is like here without Pit Guy. I hope I can be strong enough to eventually stay friends with him. I told him that if he wanted to try to work at it later on, that I would be up for it. The love is still there, I guess I just needed more than a perfect boyfriend from "Monday to Thursday".

We really were great all week long but we never could make it through a weekend. I just wanted to go out like boyfriend/girlfriend. I wanted him to hold my hand and give me kisses instead of looking at me like a DD. He showered me with love when we were home alone but out among people, he just wasn't there. He said I treated him bad. I tried not to but I might have. I apologized to him for it. I don't believe that I was the soul reason for the breakup. Well, he didn't like me writing on my blog but I guess it doesn't matter now. This is a way to deal with the pain. You will probably be seeing alot of posts from me. They won't be mean though, not like my other ex. This one didn't hurt me in that way. It just hurts that we couldn't make it work with everything that we had. I believe there was so much love between us but then again, I could be wrong. He got an apartment and I hope he has a great life. And I do truly mean that. Although I do hope that in the future he looks back and realizes what he lost.